Thursday, December 31, 2009

A New Year

I was overwhelmed with gladness with all of your responses to Dylan's video. Thank you.

His birthday had it's highs and it's lows, with the low points being lower than I anticipated.

Dylan was celebrated with an early morning visit to his grave site, a trip to the Salvation Army to drop off toys, extremely thoughtful gifts, pint sized cupcakes, a quiet dinner out, and more tears than I expected. But, he was celebrated nonetheless.

I visited Dylan's grave site again today (it was one year ago today that we laid his tiny body in the ground), and was a little taken back by the fresh site that had been dug.

The plot belongs to a "Rylan", born December 28, 2009, buried December 31, 2009. It appears as though Rylan was a very loved little person. I don't know any more details than that.

Thank you all again for the love you've shown to me in 2009. I am embracing 2010 with wide open arms.

Blessings and Peace to you and yours this New Year...

Nicole

7 comments:

Franchesca Cox said...

I am glad that in spite of tears, your son was celebrated. I am honestly dreading Jenna's birthday but you have shone some light on a very hard situation. It's going to be okay to cry... Anyway, that is so sad about the new grave. I have seen one or two recently too. So sad. I hope all the best for you this coming year!

Sara said...

Nicole,
I am praying for you right now. So sweet of you to notice anothers pain as you were at Dylan's grave... you certainly do have a heart for others... that is obvious. Keep persevering friend... He will sustain and carry us each step of the way until we are reunited with our precious boys. Thinking of you!
Sara

lindaquist said...

Ok, I have been following your blog for over a year now, and have NEVER commented, but this post was confirmation that I must now say something. That grave site belongs to my sister in law's baby. I was going to contact you because I think I would like to connect you too. My e-mail is delanolinda@hotmail.com. My name is Linda Quist and I am from Grandville here. I would love to hear from you and give you more details. God is just that cool sometimes...

Anonymous said...

Hi Nicole. I have never met you. But I am Rylans grandma. Linda shared that she had been following a "complete" strangers blog that has blessed her for a long time now. I hope we can meet someday and you can meet my daughter Heather. This as I am sure you know has been such a heartbreaking experience. I am so happy Baby Rylan is beside his new little friend Baby Dylan. My name is Pam Essenburg.I can be found on FB.Love to you in the New Year.Your blog is a precious site to behold.

Anonymous said...

WOW WOW WOW! What a confirmation that our God hears our tears and breaks us gently. What an awesome opportunty to witness to someone going through what you have already been through. Things like this do not just happen they happen for a reason. I can think of a ton of areas that you can help and bless them. Rylans family through their grief are oh so blessed to have their precious little baby girl lay next to such a strong little boy. I believe God is just showing you a small picture of what all He is going to do to take a piece of your pain and turn it into joy. I do want to share one more thing with you I quit blogging a year ago for reasons I dont need to share with the exception of not wanting to share the mess ive been throug. You have changed my mind to give God a chance to change me. I have come to a place to see that apathy will not change me and my relationship with my husband & children. Thank you for crossing my path to see i still have them alive & in my life to love & cherrish. You are a blessing even in the darkest and hardest times of your life.


your new blog friend,
Melissa

Anonymous said...

As strange as this is I went to school w Rylans mom and I have met you through Julie. (coaching). I believe it by no mistake the boys are next to each other, God always has a plan.

Jen said...

I hipe you continue to find peace and joy in 2010!