There's not much new to update on the home front.
I have had an awesome week. We had a great time with family we haven't seen in awhile. It's just unfortunate that it took a death to get us all together. Pictures to come soon!
The beginning of December was rough. But not for any obvious reason. I would imagine it had to do with my son's impending birthday. But, I am doing well right now. I am looking forward to 2010.
With each day, small pieces of the old me make their way back to the puzzle. I haven't had this much peace, or this much joy, in over 5 years. I am super excited to see what or whom, God has in store for me. There are several items on my "Bucket List", if I may call it that, that I wish to do with my newfound free time before I even begin to think about future relationships though. Details of the items on my list will be announced in the future, I'm sure. I am enjoying life, and value the opportunities I've been given.
Dylan's video has been completed. It's a-m-a-z-i-n-g. There are really no words to describe it. We did a trial run at 2 in the morning one day to see if it would post on here. It didn't. But, it is my goal to be able to post it on this blog on Dylan's birthday. We'll see if it's possible.
Other than that, life is treating me well. Given the present circumstances of my marriage, I am entirely grateful for the information God has provided, and for the fact that my son is no longer here to witness his dad making incredibly destructive choices. I am at peace that God always knows best, and my life has been spared. I cannot express just how thankful I am for what God has shielded me, and Dylan, from.
Thank you again for all your prayers this past year. When I think about this time last December, I think about how supported, how loved I felt. And that's thanks to you, and your generosity.
"Have mercy on me, O God, have mercy on me, for in you my soul takes refuge. I will take refuge in the shadow of your wings until the disaster has passed."Psalm 57:1-3
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You are amazing.
Just know that... you are.
Yes - what Deanna said!
Hoping for all sorts of wonderful things for you in 2010. :-)
Nicole~
I continue to pray for you. You are an amazing women!I am glad that God is watching over you, I am sure that God has good things in store for you in 2010! Love ya~ Abbie
I had trouble posting a 17 minute long video of our daughter on my blog, but found "vimeo" and it worked really well! www.vimeo.com You can download your video there, and then post it.
Yeah, cause his mom is just so fricken awesome!! There is nothing that I am doing wrong that would ever do anything to hurt Dylan. How many times do you visit him a week?? You need to stop writing about me and or my family. This blog was supposed to be about you grieving the loss of your son, NOT YOUR WHOLE LIFE STORY!! Knock this shit off because it is not right!! If you want to have a pitty party for yourself go ahead, but leave me and my family out of it!!
I have never posted, but really feel the need to. Nicole, I pray God continues to sustain you. Chad, you need to face God as a man and own up to your marriage vows. This is Nicole's blog and she has every right to write about whatever she needs to!
Nicole,
I just feel a need to tell you that you are AWESOME and don't let anyone tell you otherwise. You have helped many people through this blog - YOUR blog. I know that your faith helped me through a difficult time when I lost my Mom. I also write to help me heal and I pray that you continue doing so to help you heal through this difficult time. I know that right now in my healing process it hurts to much to go visit my Mom. I have learned to we all grieve and mourning in different ways. Some of us it takes longer, others vent it in other ways like anger. Keep your faith.
Chad,
You are obviously grieving and don't know how to show it. You coming on to this blog and expressing your emotion is just not healthy. I don't even know how you have the nerve to come on here and say those things and use such language. What example of a person are you showing your son Dylan? As much as this is a disappointment to hear, I can tell from this comments you are dealing with issues. I hope someday you can look yourself in the mirror and be ok with what you see. As far as I am concerned Nicole is much better off without you!
First time comment here.... I just need to say to Chad, that I'm pretty sure by hurting Nicole you would be hurting Dylan. Just a thought.
I agree if Nicole wants to write her whole life story she has every right to. It is her blog.
Nicole, your faith in God is admirable. However, I think your focus should be on Him and not what Chad is or is not doing for that matter. Let God and Chad deal with that. I believe that some of your actions would not be anything Dylan would be so proud of either. You said youself that you would not drag Chad's name through the mud but you have done just that. You're right, this is YOUR blog and you can write about whatever you please. But it should be about YOUR life and Dylan, not Chad's private life. Doing so isn't going to make the situation any easier. I pray that you will find healing and peace. Let God show you the answers, don't go looking for them.
Wow. I think that its great that Nicole has a place to go where she can talk about anything and everything that she wants to ... whenever and however she wants...I think it would be even better if she could do so without criticism and if this were anyone else writing mean hurtful comments I would say the same thing to them as I am to you. If you dont like it dont read it...and ask your friends and family not to do so either. That should solve the problem.
Nicole. I dont think it matters how many times you go to visit Dylan in a week. He is not there... As long as he is in your Heart and Mind then you are doing just fine...then you are being a GREAT Mom.
Holy smokes, Nicole. I am speechless. Anyone who dares to ridicule you, on your own blog, and not even post their own name(s) is cowardly. I am raging inside right now for you.
Divorce is a horrible process. I've been there. It sucks. It is not possible to separate the divorce proceedings or interacting "ex-family" with the feelings you are going through. The fact that you are able to cope, to hold your head high, and to truly not bad mouth anyone shows more maturity and belief in God than I could ever hope to have. God Bless you and Dylan.
I just want to say non-anonymously, that I find it sad that love can turn so ugly so quickly. You are a stronger woman than I am..... you are going through an awful divorce, yet still find a way to never belittle or insult him. I hope that he can let his anger go and just go in peace. You both deserve that.
Nicole, I have never posted before, I look up to you and your strength, be strong, you are an incredible woman. I'm sorry that things seem to crumble around you when you need the most support, know that you are in the prayers of many of your readers, obviously not all, but they are a small percentage! Bless you in your journey ahead, and may it always be good.
Nicole,
I feel that you can write about whatever you please. This is YOUR blog and if you wish to drag Chad's name through the mud, write about how badly he hurt you or how it sucks to be going through the loss of your child and your husband, you have the freedom to do so.
If people do not like what they read, they can make the decision NOT to come to your blog.
My blog was started as a way to keep my family & friends in the loop and over time, it didn't progress that way and my family gave me a hard time for speaking my true feelings about them. I eventually made my blog invite only so they could not continue to harass me about it. You do what you gotta do, girl!
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